
Hiding my struggle with depression
On Zoom I look polished; off-camera I collapsed. That’s high-functioning bipolar depression: an exhausting, Oscar-worthy mask that hides real suffering, blocks support, and confuses loved ones.
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BSc, PhD, aka the StigmaCrusher, is a mental health advocate and keynote speaker with a rare blend of academic expertise and lived experience. Equipped with a doctorate in experimental psychology and firsthand knowledge of bipolar disorder, she’s both heavily educated and, as she likes to say, heavily medicated. Crazy smart, she’s been crushing mental health stigma since 2010.

On Zoom I look polished; off-camera I collapsed. That’s high-functioning bipolar depression: an exhausting, Oscar-worthy mask that hides real suffering, blocks support, and confuses loved ones.

This morning I woke up to find that my nose was running, and I had a cough. Is it the dreaded COVID-19? The common cold? This year’s strain of influenza? Allergies?
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